I’ve been with the same guy since 2017, we moved from Michigan together to Florida. Two month into being here he cheated on me with someone from another country that was also in a relationship. I left and went back to Michigan to hopefully find myself and cope with losing someone, as well as his whole family cause mine has been in and out of my life. Back home I got my stuff together bought a new car and changed my ways and myself. I then moved to Texas with my grandma. A month after living there I got an amazing job offer and took it. Two months after working for this company he texted me. Wanting me to come back. (Half my stuff was still here was planning a visit here to take all of it with me.) after deciding to come back I stayed in Texas for another month to make sure he’d changed his way last year September I can back. I’ve been back a year. This last week we talked about finally having a baby. I truthfully know myself I’m ready. I felt we both were. So we spent all this money to get my ovulation on track and know when we were ready to conceive. Last night he told me he wasn’t ready all in a matter of a day his mind changed. And my heart broke. It’s like getting your hopes up for something that you want and it not happening. After three years with a small break I really thought I’d have a commitment by now. Yes I have a promise ring but that was before he cheated on me and truthfully that doesn’t mean anything to me cause he just broke it when he decided to pick another girl over me while I was at our home and he was renting a hotel with our money to sleep with another girl.

This morning I told him I was just ready for a commitment, and he said “I don’t want to be pressured into something that big.” And when I brought us still trying up he said “that’s a big responsibility.”

I’m at a lost for words.. my heart hurts.

Advice?