I posted about this briefly the other day, but as the last few days have went by its sinking in. My ldr broke up with me through text after almost 2 years together. He blamed it on me, said it was my fault and blamed my depression for everything. He then cursed at me. When I sent my goodbye he, as usual, had to have the last word and sent me some bull shit about learning to love myself (total tone change from the text before that). I didnt respond further. I said goodbye and left it at that. I deleted our thread, the one photo we had together and blocked his number.

Today, I had to drive by the airport where I picked him up and dropped him off almost a year ago. I remembered being so upset when he went back home, I missed him so much my heart hurt. Now I just feel..empty, sad.

I know in the end we just weren't meant to be. We both had issues, i had suspicions of another woman being involved. I know this is for the best and I'm fighting the urge to talk to him every day. Ultimately, he was a narcissist that played on my lows, i know that and I still loved him. There were talks of relocating, family, travel..all of the things one would want in life. It was too good to be true.

How can i get out of this slump? I don't want to be tethered to him anymore, especially with my emotions, the one thing he loved to play with the most. I just want to move on..