Life is really handing it to me.

Last week I posted this:

And then today I got this text message:

I don’t have a big friend group. I’m friendly with a lot of people, but I really only have 3 good, true friends and 2 out of 3 of them are now pregnant and told me a week apart.

I really thought I had hit my lowest last week with everything else that was thrown at me, but nope. I’m happy for my friends and my SIL. None of this is their fault and I know that but my heart is absolutely shattered. I’m just so damn sad.

I know I’ll feel better tomorrow but today I am not okay and I have literally nobody to talk to about it except my husband but to be honest, even he doesn’t get it.

I’m not at all trying to have a pity party, I’m just truly looking for people that get how shitty this process can be and how mentally and emotionally draining it is because I am like this 👌🏼 close to losing my mind.