After 5yrs he says he wants to be single?!

I got broken up with out of the blue by my boyfriend of 5 years . I literally didn’t see it coming I feel like I just got hit by a car . I thought everything was fine and we were both happy . It’s been like two weeks since we split but 3 days that we haven’t spoken to each other ..

The entire quarantine we were happy honestly everything was fine. He started a new job at the beginning of the month and got super busy and stressed. I’ll admit during his first week of work I wasn’t as supportive and I was being clingy but I was having a hard week myself bc my grandfather had gotten diagnosed with covid and I was extremely worried. Anyway my bf ( I hate saying ex 😢) told me it was the last straw for him that I was stressing him out and that he wanted to be alone and he wanted to be single . He told me still loves me and that if we ever get back together he would want to marry me ...

The entire thing confused me I basically feel like he was unhappy for a while and didn’t tell me didn’t give me a chance to fix whatever it was that I was doing wrong .

I’ve seen him twice since he broke up with me . The first time I cried and he hugged me and kissed me . He told me over and over that it’s just bc he wants to be alone and wants to be single and that it’s not for another person or to go sleep around ...

the second time I saw him we hugged a few times and kissed ( I honestly initiated it ) . I asked him if he still loved me and he confirmed that he does . All the actions of affections and telling me he loves me are what is making me suffer bc it’s confusing . It gives me hope that this is temporary and he’ll change his mind but at the same time it feels awful to be left like this .. he hasn’t told any of his friends or his family at all. His sister texted me recently to invite me over ( which I declined ) and she clearly has no clue... I’ve only told my best friend .

After the second time I saw him I decided that I should stop speaking / reaching out to him and we haven’t spoken since . He hasn’t reached out at all which is heart breaking .

I really want him back and I hope we do get back together .. I’m seriously so stressed guys . Please give me some advice ❤️. Also please no negative comments I’m literally here emotionally dying .

Idk if this makes a difference but we’re both 24. We still follow each other on social media and if I text him he does respond . But I’ve decided not to reach out anymore .

Also I’m sorry if I sound really dramatic this has literally been a shock to me. It’s really stupid to ask but do you guys think it’ll work out I really want him back 😭