It doesn’t matter what I do, whether actively trying or not even looking at anything, I find myself in a constant state of pain, over not having conceived. I have a complete mental break down at least once a month, even when I say I don’t want to try anymore, I still find myself hurt. It doesn’t matter what I do I’m still I pain, I don’t want to feel like this anymore and I don’t know what to do. I feel like I’m failing as a woman.