Hello,

My ex and I have been broken up now for 3 weeks and a few days. Since that break up, I had a hard time recovering and I still am, the day before he texted me. I was surprised because he never gave me any sign that he would want to talk... so he texted me and asked me if I was willing to talk and I said sure ok. Not knowing what it was about, I didn't had any intention to speak to him because I still feel this pain that he caused. We meet last night and he explained to me that this conversation was for me to gain closure, we spent like an hour or so talking about what went wrong in the 5 years relationship, blaming the other for not investing in the relationship... at the end we found out that we both invested a lot and that we couldn't see the good things we did for each other. He admitted that he doesn't show his emotions, which caused me to believe that he didn't care or love me or was giving me any attention or affection. I can say that I was satisfied by the conversation we had and understood his way of showing me love and affection throughout that relationship. He then asked me for us to not be enemies and I told him that once I got out of this dark place that I wouldn't want to be his enemie. He then suggested that we become friends, I told him that for right now I need to finish heal from this break up and then I'll get there. He then proceeded to ask me if I wanted to have sex and I.... said yes but then I wasn't sure because it might come off as us being friends with benefits and I don't want to have any Hope's what so ever.... but in that moment I knew that I wanted him too. So we did. Am I wrong for having sex with him? Why do I feel like I've lost respect for myself???