feel depressed and miserable

in my last year of nursing school only a week in and it’s already making me feel like i’m not good enough. I aced through the first year and now everything I do is not good enough. I feel so down. I have no money and no other direction to go. I can’t see a bright future for myself. I got a 74 on my first exam and passing is a 78. I never gotten that low. besides this, my clinical teacher is picking apart my concept maps, something I would do amazing on the first year. my head is also super foggy and I feel a darkness over me. I feel like i just want to sleep it all away. I don’t really wanna be here anymore.

besides this, I feel like I love my bf more than he loves me. I can’t deal with all of this it’s way too much.

I just want to be happy, I want to be able to wake up and happy about my life. i’m not gonna hurt myself but I keep having those thoughts. like i’m not good enough and I don’t deserve to be here. i hate this.