😥 I feel terrible. I fake smile just to hide my pain. All I think of whenever I'm standing somewhere high is how long it will take to fall to the ground and just die.

My confidence level is zero. I feel like I'm not myself in my own body. I've even browsed the easiest way to die😥.

As if my depression isn't enough, I lost my friend and brother to death😥💔. He's just a little boy.

Nothing matters to me.

I have been lied to by someone I love. Why would he invite me over to his house and yet sleep in his room with another woman 😩

Why would he ask me to lie that I'm his cousin?

Why can't my dad care too? I can't even go home cause I feel like a stranger in that house. I drown in my tears everyday yet wake up and make my fans laugh🤦🏽‍♀️ (a comedian that can't even laugh truly)

My self esteem is nothing to write home about 😥

Please I need help. Words of encouragement. I don't want to end it cos it will break my mom's heart. I know she has a lot of faith in me. I don't want to fail her.

If you know any music that can uplift me, please share.

Sorry for any grammatical error, I'm not English. Thanks