Recurrent loss

I had one chemical, 1 miscarriage at 6 weeks didn't manage to see fetal pole and heartbeat, 1 missed miscarriage 6 weeks but we managed to see heartbeat. Its horrible experiences. Waking up every morning is a hell because I will wake up from a dream and in that dream I had baby in my arms!

Moving on..... I was wondering why I keep miscarriage at 6 weeks (one couldn't see heartbeat and one we saw heartbeat)? we are going to see doctor but not so soon as I am still recovering from shock.

Anyone with similar experience? It's a hell :(