I want this!!

Am I the only one that begins fantasizing about that great BFP moment ? I'm 10dpo. I got a negative at 7dpo, even though I knew it was too early. I just get antsy. I think I had implantation pain and Inplantation bleeding, however it only lasted a half hour and it was only when I did a cm check. I could be over thinking. Am I the only one that gets like this?