My husband has hid a porn addiction from me for 4 years. It came out and I was upset that we don’t have a trust like I thought we did. I asked if he would show me the stuff he is into and he really played up the fact that I was going to feel really bad about myself, which I probably would have but him telling me that really hurt my feelings.

Anyway, he’s in to really big girls squirting lol. I’m not big and I don’t squirt like that lol. He doesn’t feel comfortable including me in any porn watching because he is afraid it’s gonna hurt me emotionally, but I’d rather do stuff with him then him hide and do it alone.

He keeps making me feel like those women are superior to me in his eyes and I’m not sure what to do, has anyone else had a similar experience?