I've been feeling down all day and I couldn't figure out why, I just thought I was having an off day. Then I remembered that it's my bfp anniversary. I took the test after having cramps but no period, I woke my husband up with the news, we both cried a little and was so excited. Sadly the pregnancy ended in October. Although I'm 35 weeks pregnant with my rainbow it still hurts. That feeling of getting your first bfp and being hopeful for a baby then having it snatched from you never goes away.