I am 30 years old and I have been trying to conceive for 4 years now with my current partner and it’s been no success. I know I am calling able of getting pregnant, I was pregnant at the age of 18; ended in an abortion (please do not judge me I am still dealing with it) and I don’t know if it’s my current partner or myself because I was abusing cocaine for 2 years (again, don’t judge I am now almost 2 years sober) it is just so hard to fathom that I may never become a mother, that is my one wish in the world to at least have a child of my own! I have always wanted a family of 3 children but I guess life has different plans, please help me stay positive I am not the one to ever ask for anything but this is the one thing that eats away at me everyday!