Hell Week

Tomorrow starts the one year anniversary.

Tomorrow is the day I KNEW I was miscarrying.

It started with a uterine biopsy.

Two days later, they had decided it was ectopic and gave me the methotrexate shot.

Finally on Day 5, my tube ruptured.

It was the longest week of my life. The weeks after were honestly no better.

I am so beyond blessed to be carrying this rainbow baby. Only 6 more weeks to go, but the next five days won’t be about her. It will be about the one we lost, the one I never got to meet.

Deep breaths.