No heartbeat

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Last week at 8 weeks I had my first ultrasound and the baby measured 6 weeks with a slow 77bpm heart rate. I went back today to see if there was any growth and there was no heartbeat. I'm having a d&c tomorrow.

I'm devastated. I feel empty. All I've ever wanted was to be a mother. Never a doctor, police officer, or teacher like most kids... just a mother. Now I don't know if I can endure this pain again.