Pregnancy update at 38 weeks

I don’t regret my daughter but I do regret getting pregnant again. She won’t be treated differently from my other babies but I’m not excited to give birth. I just want this pregnancy to be over... feelings so messed up and I feel so bad that I feel this way but it’s the truth. Tired of faking a smile. I been scared shitless to have another baby and the end of this pregnancy not helping nothing. I wish I could take 3 years of my life bacc when things was a lil easier.