I'm so scared...

My Daughter just turned 1 last month and I'm due to give birth in 29 days.

I'll have 2 under 2 under 22 years old!

And I wish more than anything I was as excited as I was when I was about to give birth to my daughter..

I'm scared beyond belief and everyone keeps telling me how much I'm going to struggle and how hard its going to be.

I feel like I've got baby blues before I've even had my baby!

Imagine what I'm going to feel like afterwards...

I so badly want to be excited.

On top of that I've got a super unsupportive husband who I've been fighting with CONSTANTLY and my brother and his wife won't speak to me as they've been trying to have a baby for 3 years and I fell pregnant so easily AGAIN and I havent spoken to my mother in law for 8 months due to some serious domestic issues...

I'm so stressed out and depressed...

And I keep hoping and praying that I'm going to love my 2nd daughter as much as I love my first, she deserves nothing less and I hate myself for feeling this way!

I want to give them both the best of the best and im terrified that I wont be able to do that...