Feel so different this time, guilty

We waited & tried so long for my 1st, I was desperate for a baby. When I finally did get pregnant I was overflowing with joy even when I felt sick it was “the best reason to feel my worst” I was so excited.

I’m now pregnant with baby #2. We’d been trying for a while (about 8 months)but honestly I was shocked I got pregnant as soon as I did. I’m happy I’m pregnant, I am, but it just doesn’t feel the same at all. I’ve been a lot sicker this time, so maybe that’s a factor? Im also stressed because of Covid & we’re moving soon & life 😝. I’m just not crazy excited or jumping for joy like I was last time & I feel horribly guilty! Like I’m not giving this baby the same amount of love or something 😭?!? & who can I talk to about this? It’s not like I can say to my husband, man this is just way less exciting than last time, huh? I just want to be a good mom to all my babies & I feel like I’m already failing this one ... buh also pregnancy hormones got me typing this like😭😭😭😭😭

Idk can anyone relate? Can you tell me it goes away? I’m 8 wks & I haven’t had an ultrasound yet, maybe I just need to see the baby? Please nothing negative