I don’t want to touch the kittens

Okay I know I probably sound dramatic. But my last rescue litter all died on me.

It was quick, horrible and they suffered.

I know I sound stupid but it made me feel like everything I touched died. I nearly completely gave up rescuing because of it.

Now I have a new litter and a momma. They have very committed homes to go to when they’re weaned and ready. Like all want pictures and videos of them nearly everyday. I know I should be interacting with them more. But I can’t stop feeling like it I touch them I’ll kill them.

I know it wasn’t my fault, they caught a virus from their mom and it turned into pneumonia and their bodies were so new a fragile that once they got sick they never had a chance. But good lord how do I get over that? I want them to be very used to humans by the time they go to their new homes.

I forgot to mention that they have a momma. So you don’t have to worry about them having fading kitten Syndrome. They have a really sweet momma. The vet says they’re completely normal healthy babies. But I feel like I’m going to make them sick if I mess with them too much so I leave them be with their mom.