New mom 🥺

So my son is 9 months old, and I still get super emotional idk if it’s related to postpartum still or what. But today my mom asked to watch him she watches him often but only if I have to go somewhere I’ll drop him off. me and my bf work opposite shifts so we’re home with him. (I only work 2 days a week so I’m with my son almost 24/7) any who so as I’m driving to drop my son off I get the feeling to cry like I’m leaving him forever or a guilty feeling cause I’m not doing anything or don’t need for him to be watched. And while I’m home alone I can’t stop thinking about him or missing him. Am I the only one 😩 btw this is the second time ever since he’s been born that she watch him for no reason (I didn’t have anything to do but go back home) I know we need personal time but how do you get over the guilt and get back to making time for yourself again