Hi,

I am 26 years old. I have a wonderful six year old daughter. And 14 month old surrogate baby girl who lives in France with her family.

Her father and I always planned on having one more baby after doing surrogacy. Unfortunately my journey as a surrogate didn't goes as planned. I was pregnant with di/di twins boy and girl. Sadly my water broke with baby A little boy at 24 weeks and 2 days. I stayed on hospital bed rest until I had to have a emergency c section at 28 weeks and 4 days. After delivery little boy passed away due to infection he developed from being in the womb with broke water. I spent three more weeks in hospital for infection after infection. Also spent 159 days having to have my c section packed as it had to be reopened to heal from the inside out.

It was August of this year I started bleeding uncontrollable and didn't stop bleeding until after they did a D and C in September. At this point I had positive HpL and kept increasing for not being pregnant is not normal until two weeks ago it completely went away and back to normal. Yay!!

Anyways we have been trying to convince since june still nothing. I just need positive thoughts to help me keep pushing through. As I don't feel like it's ever going to happen. I got pregnant right away with my daughter and twins.

I figured it was because everything. Which very well could be but still feeling down.