Trigger warning: Rape

Do you tell your SO everything? I’m taking about your past before you met him/her. Things that have happened as a child. The bad stuff, the trauma, etc? I don’t talk about this to anyone. I don’t bring it up at all.

I was molested by my older cousin now that I think about it. He would make me touch him down there every time we would see each other. He would kiss me, touch me, etc. This happened for years. His parents found out that we had kissed one time and made me feel so horrible. I was younger than him. I was also molested/raped by a way older man around his 50’s. The man is now wanted for being a child predator. I just remember standing there scared while him naked on the bed and his wife told me to never say anything or else they would hurt me.

I really am so damaged. I have always had trouble with this past. I get so triggered. My husband doesn’t know this at all. I don’t know if I should tell him. I don’t know how he’s going to react...I’m choosing to stay anonymous