Don't know what to do

Dannii-lou
I'm by myself today :( I lost my little boy when he was 2 it is the anniversary today so feeling very upset he would be 4 in December, just want to cry and sleep all day :/ I had a mc start of this year, I also lost my mother 3 years ago. My ex was abusive, and he went to prison start of this year, having flashbacks! My man is out today won't be back till 11ish tonight, he also doesn't have his phone, as where he is he has no signal! I'm in the UK and its only coming up to 1pm!! Friends are all busy! I've done housework today and been shopping nothing else to do! Need to cry :( feel extremely anxious also don't even know why I'm feeling this way. Sorry to post just don't know what to do