Venting...

Today I just felt so sad and I keep crying and I know it's mainly because of my period. But it hurts even more because I can see the annoyance in my husband's face because of it. It makes me feel like I'm such a burden or a letdown because we didn't get to do the things he wanted to do because of the way I was feeling. Sometimes I'm scared to just really let go and cry in front of him because I feel like I can just sense him internally rolling his eyes at me like "here we go again". So I just go numb until the pain goes away and force a smile on my face so I don't make anyone uncomfortable. I know he loves me and he is there for me but there are some days I wonder if he is just tired of me