I could go into labor any day now. My boyfriend has been a piece of shit throughout my entire pregnancy, living the wild and free life, but claims to love me sooooooooo much 🙄 I can’t even count how many days in a row I’ve cried now over something stupid that he’s done.

Not once has he messaged me today and asked how I was doing. I’m doing absolutely terrible and he doesn’t know it. Well he does know it actually, but will say “you never said anything!” so he can use it against me later, thats the way he is. The only time I’ve heard from him was when he called and asked me if he should come home (to sleep) before he goes to the party he’s attending tonight. I’m just baffled that when after I mentioned that I needed him with me, he still chose to go party. If I go into labor tonight, he’ll be too drunk to drive back to be with me.

These are supposed to be happy and exciting days. He has made my pregnancy so miserable and lonely for me that I feel like I’ve almost been permanently scarred. I feel like I will never want to be pregnant again.

Fuck fuck fuck. I always thought he was the one for me but clearly he’s not. If we were meant to be together I wouldn’t have to explain to him every day how to be a good partner to me. My heart hurts.