Miscarriage at 8 weeks and someone who treats me like shit

Where do I begin ( long story ... I’m 21 btw )

October 1st when I tested and it was a very dark line so we knew I was definitely preggos ! We both weren’t super excited just calm he said that he wanted to definitely keep it and make it work I said that I didn’t want it and wanted to look into other options but I wasn’t certain with that decision I didn’t see our selfs being able take care of another baby with our situation and being young with that I just told him we will talk about it more tomorrow and just try to enjoy the rest of the day ... fast forward to that night we had sex I thought it would ease my cramps but instead shortly after I started spotting light pink then hours later it was red I told him to take me to the ER in the am since it wasn’t a lot of blood and cramps were bearable on and off . Next morning we stop at urgent cares in the area to see if they could help me they all denied ... that’s when he started getting pissed about the money the ER would cost and how far away it was from us and the whole time the blood is getting heavier and heavier I’m stuck in a car I can’t change anywhere I don’t have a change of clothes or pads or anything I wasn’t expecting this to happen and he was being so hostile I didn’t want to say anything I was scared so finally we made it to the ER and he pulls up to the front door I looked at him and told him no way i was getting out I’m bleeding so badly it’s coming outside of my pants on the car seat everywhere .. he gets sooo pissed at me pulls off in front of people walking starts yelling at me in the car with our young son in the back seat telling me how I’m wasting his time and how he doesn’t want to deal with me or this that when I broke down completely crying and telling him I think I’m miscarrying and right when I said that everything came out it felt like when my water broke with my first child just a gush of fluids he pulls out and starts speeding to get me back home because he was so over the situation ... I’m crying so bad I can’t even breathe nor control my emotions I’m so sad and heartbroken I think I just lost a baby . Finally we make it back home and I go to the bathroom pull down my pants and boom ... there was my sweet baby my whole body went numb I wrapped the baby in a wash cloth and cleaned myself up I came back outside to the car where he was waiting and showed him the baby immediately he said he didn’t want to see it and he doesn’t understand why I would bring it to the car and that I should throw it out and how he just cleaned up the car and how I’m bringing it into it ... I felt so shocked like I don’t even know him anymore im so broken to the point I just feel numb and empty ... I still have the fetus with me I don’t want to throw it away I want it close to me .. I have no friends no one to talk to about this I feel like im losing my mind I feel really lost and I need help I don’t trust myself alone someone please give me guidance show me the way help me heal and leave this scum bag alone I just don’t see a future for myself I feel horrible I don’t feel like a woman anymore help me