mad at my boyfriend

i feel like i’m being toxic right now haha. so i’ve been very lonely the last couple of days and i don’t really have supportive friends. today i was feeling extra lonely and my boyfriend knew and he knew i wanted to see him and i didn’t want to stay home alone because that’s all i’ve been doing the past couple of days. his friends were hanging out today and they’re all bringing their girlfriends. he didnt invite me, even though he passed by my job right when i was about to finish and didn’t come to visit me even for a second (honestly would’ve made a huge difference if he did) i feel like crap because i thought he was gonna invite me because i was getting out the same time he was going and it’s not like we spend time together as much anymore cuz we’re both working or he’s busy with his friends. i just feel like i’m becoming a priority in his life even though i’m always encouraging him to have his space. whenever we hang out i’m the one that makes the plans or if we do something he wants it involves being with his friends. and whenever it’s just us he always talks about them and the fun things they did together and how much they mean to him. and i mean i get it because they’re all chasing the same dream and they’re busy making it happen so i understand why he wants to be around them but like ever since he started hanging out with them again like i just feel like i dont matter anymore. somedays we’ll be facetiming and i’d wanna talk abt my day or something that happened and he would change the subject after a couple of “poor baby:(“ or “dont worry u’ll be fine’s” and go on to talk about a funny joke his friend made or whatever. and it bothers me bc last time i checked when he was going through a rough time, who was there for him? yep that’s right. i don’t wanna make a big deal because i know how much friendship means to him but it’s like... he tells me he loves me but it feels like a routine for him. like a little effort would make me feel so much better and i don’t wanna ask because i feel like i’m just being insecure. the last time he expressed his love for me was the night we got drunk with his friends and even that didn’t feel genuine. idk maybe i’m just being insecure but when i saw he was lonely i spent alot of time with him until i was sure he felt okay but whenever i need him i’m stuck dealing with shit by myself. like alwaysssssss