I like two guys at once

The first guy I absolutely adore is 42 and by the way I’m 23 but he has a kid my age and he’s still married but their split his wife lives else where. So I don’t see myself having more kids and marriage with him. For one because he has 3 kids and his youngest is 12. For two he’s been marriage already for 15 years. I don’t see him wanting another marriage or more kids. I have one son but I do want another kid in like 2 years. I love how he treats me and adores me and just cherishes my body and just me. He helps me pay bills without asking I just never been treated so good and he treats my son awesome as well.

The second guy I like is 22 and I find myself telling him how to even be a man. But he’s been thru a lot and I try to guide him but with him I feel like I can be myself but I feel like I’ll have two kids if I end up with him. He wants marriage and he has no kids and he wants some. We never had sex because the older guy is who I have sexual activity with and I don’t want to have sex with two people. But idk the guys helps me stay on track with school and everything he just supports me all the way around the younger guy doesn’t know how to if that makes sense