Baby bumps! 🙈🙊

How do I know if it’s a baby bump or just bloating? This is my first time being pregnant and nothing is going ‘normal’ I’ve already got anaemia at 11 weeks and 2 days. Had it since 10 weeks. Breathing is very hard. Getting up the stairs in my house without having to sit down for 15-30 minutes is basically impossible. I’m also struggling with not overthinking that I’ve lost my baby. I have this thought almost everyday and it’s so scary and unsettling. I haven’t had any scans yet but I have one on the 9th October. I’m so scared. I hate hospitals and have very bad social and general anxiety. I’m wondering if I have a bump or if it’s just bloating because I don’t know how to find the difference I guess. My partner is trying to do everything he can to support me but he doesn’t really have a clue what to do. The most he’s been able to do so far is try calm me down when I’m thinking I’ve lost the baby and give me back massages because the back pain is excruciating. I feel like I’m also being a bit of a baby when it comes to all of this. Like maybe it’s not as bad as I’m thinking and that I need to just get on with it and not mention anything. I struggle with depression most days and have since I was little and one of my biggest fears is that I’m going to get PPD and leave my partner and my baby alone.

Any suggestions on what I should do about any of this. (Sorry it got a bit off topic) TIA xx