Trigger Warning - Stillbirth & Breastmilk

First off, I want to say how amazing and strong all of you are for having to be in this group. On my loneliest days I come in here and read others’ posts and it reminds me that we are never truly alone❤️

We found out Tuesday, 9/28, that our 20 week old sons heart was no longer beating. No true explanation, but he was gone. We waited until Thursday to go to the hospital because I needed a few days to process everything before I was ready to let him go. Our beautiful son Christopher Bennett was born 6:05am on 10/2. I am beyond words and the grief is drowning.

I had a very hard day yesterday, probably my darkest since Tuesday. I woke up this morning feeling a bit better, but now I’m sobbing because my milk just came in...

What have you all done to help stop the production? Or did you pump and donate? I really don’t think I can bring myself to pump and keep the milk, I think I’d rather dry it up and try to heal.

❤️TIA❤️