idk how to move on

ive posted on here before about my husband. cheating , beating on me , pushing my son ( not his biologically) he did get the cops called on and got locked up , went to the halfway house .

He also physically abused me when i was pregnant with our twins. he would leave on weekends. i lost count of how many females he cheated on me with. To the time where he got some girl from the most nasty strip club known for the females walking around with stds. to the most recent of him talking to my neighbor and trying to kiss her out side our home! while i was inside the house.

Hes at the halfway house again because he got a dwi again. And somehow hes saying its all mu fault his life is fucked up because everytime i would kick him out all this bs happens to him getting into trouble .

I usually would kick him out once he started disrespecting me and yelling in front of the kids when he was drunk. Cause my kids would cry and get scared. He would say if i really loved him i wouldnt allow him to leave drunk. now hes the one saying he doesnt want to be with me because i need professional help. And for me not to contact him unless its for our daughters . 😔

now hes saying hes gonna get his life right. Thats hes tired of living this life. I guess what hurts is that he never tried to. Make any changes when he was with us and now that hes away he wants to be better ? i feel like if my kids and I werent enough. Now hes willing to make changes for someone else