I thought I just looked fat but it looks different 😂

I am a uk size 18-20 with some fat on my stomach. Now my jeans don't fit anymore and my waist seems to have disappeared (the only bit about my body I loved) but I'm not sure if I just look fat???? 😂 my husband said (in nice terms I'm just being blunt) that my fat is not that shape normally....it feels firm.  I know I shouldnt compare but some of my friends had cute bumps by now and I just have hard, mishapened fat.  Do you think the baby bloat is pushing the fat out? I've just realised this post sounds like I hate myself but I really don't.  Just wanted to see if anyone else felt the same? I'm coming up to 9 weeks this weekend