Vent ppst

Please i am writing this fast so I know my grammar is wrong. Please do not judge me

I feel like I have wasted 4 years of my life. I don't know of if I can do with my husband anymore. His addiction is ruining our marriage. The more his uses the more he get abusive. I have tried to leave but I believe what he promises me and he breaks them every time. I have picture of what he has done. What more can I do? I called a lawyer and she told me I would have to move out of state.