I didn’t do much but a friend and I got down on it today. If I’m being real it felt good but at the same time I think I’ve realized that I don’t want sex right now and its the media making me think that I need it . I have this after effect that’s not an after-glow but an after-guilt. I almost chickened out and I kinda wish I would’ve. But what’s done is done and now I know. I just wish I could tell someone and I know I probably could tell one of my friends and they would understand but I just feel too ashamed