Postpartum appointment

My 6 week postpartum visit is next Monday and I’m wondering what to expect. I’ve heard you have an exam and everything and I’m absolutely horrified because I’m still hurting and not completely healed and I had a very traumatic birth experience and I’m really not ready to be touched by anyone down there. I’m almost considering canceling my appointment because of that. I really don’t know what to do and I’m scared and have the worst anxiety.