I’d like to apologize in advance as this post is going to be all over the place, but I just need to vent a little bit.

My boyfriend and I have been trying to conceive for 5 months now. I know that isn’t long and there are others who have been trying for years, but I’m already getting so discouraged. It took me five years to conceive my first and I was hoping this time would be different. Five years ago I had an ectopic pregnancy and I ended up losing one of my Fallopian tubes, so that doesn’t give me much hope either.

We already have three-I have one 9 year-old boy from a previous marriage and he has two (9 year-old boy and 6 year-old girl) also from a previous marriage, but I really want a little girl of my own. I’m 29 and we decided it would be best for our family and our future if stop trying when I turn 30. I just feel so discouraged and sad that it’s not happening and I only have 9 cycles left of trying.

I would love to hear some encouraging stories, whether it ends with a baby or not.