So I have a friend with benefits.. Whom I have feelings for. But he doesn't know.

Anastasia
Ok. We've been at this for.. 3 years.. Maybe 4. I know nothing is ever going to happen between us. And I'm okay with that. We haven't had a SO since we've started this. So idk how I'd react to him having someone else. I do talk to other guys. I have almost been in relationships but he's never found out. And the reason I never make it to a relationship is because I become bored easily by other guys. Ok anyway, this guy has made it pretty clear that we'll never be anything.. I mean 3 yrs. Come on. Buuut he gets mad at me (like really mad) when he finds out I talk to other guys. Which is really annoying because I just don't understand why he'd get mad if I'm pretty sure he talks to other girls as well. I'm more than sure, actually. We have mutual friends so there have been times when we are around eachother but we pretend nothing is going on. Only our closest friends know about us. There was this one time when I got so drunk at his at an after party and he brought me home but we stayed and talked outside for a little while. And I guess I was going to start my period or something that I was so emotional. And I literally told him that I liked him so much and I cried to him. And he just held me and asked me what I wanted with him. And I told him nothing. Because it's true. I can't see myself in a relationship with him. But I don't ever want him in a relationship with anyone else. He then told me that I couldnt want him. That he's always working (he leaves to work in oil rigs) and he wouldn't know what I'd be doing here. Sooo.. Back to this..I like having sex with him and all. I like just watching movies with him at his house sometimes even. And we study together other times. We basically like being together, alone. I like that he lives in my neighborhood (lol) so we can call eachother up whenever we want... Something. Haha. But yeah. Do you think this is unhealthy for me?