To report or not to report....

So I have been going to the same Gyno for about 6ish years. I’ve always adored him. He delivered both my kids. He’s always been extremely nice and a liiiiittle touchy feely (rubs my back before he leaves the room) and did one thing 3 years ago when I was 6 weeks PP with my daughter that weirded me out. Male gynos at the practice I go to (maybe all of them, not sure) have to have a female nurse in the room for all pelvic exams. Well he did my 6 week PP exam with a nurse present and I jokingly asked him if my vagina was ruined. He laughed and finished and the nurse left. Well once she left he asked me to lay back down so he could check one thing. I did and he put his hands not inside me but touched me and told me my vagina still looked great and not to worry. I brushed it off. Flash forward to today, I had my annual Pap smear. Nurse is in room for it. He finishes she leaves. He then asks me to lay down again to “check something” and I do and he puts his gloves on again and maybe 30 seconds later his nurse knocks on the door to hand him my paperwork and he jumps up and rips his gloves off. I got so nervous I jumped up too! I felt like we had got caught having sex or something- it was awful. Then he asks how my boyfriend and I are doing and about our sex life 😩 and if we had any problems. I just laughed and said “no problems at all ! We do it daily.” And he goes “daily? Wow! Where were you when I was looking for a girlfriend?” 😩 And proceeds to rub my lower back while discussing when I need to come in next as im sitting up on exam table with a sheet over my lower half. Finally he stops talking and tells me I can get dressed and leave.

This is a man that I trusted immensely who has been my doctor through 2 back to back pregnancies (and one miscarriage- he performed my D&C) and done my paps for years. But I literally feel like I got borderline sexually assaulted by him. He’s an extremely well respected doctor and it’s very hard to get appointments with him unless you have been a long term patient of his. But now I am just sooo grossed out. Do I report? Or just find a new doctor? Is it my fault for laying back down when he asked? Or being too comfortable/friendly with him? I’m terrified to tell my boyfriend as I know he would absolutely flip so I have no one to discuss this with. 😢