Venting

March 2017 I found out I was pregnant. I was 20 almost 21, At my 8week appointment I found out I had miscarried at six weeks but there was a clot in the way that wouldn’t let it the baby to pass through. I was beyond sad and me and my boyfriend decided to try again after my 21st birthday the first time we tried we got pregnant we are beyond excited didn’t say anything until at least 13 weeks. Me just wanting to find out the gender so we did genetic testing and when the testing came back it turned out that there was a risk that my daughter had Turner syndrome. After finding out I had appointments every week with the ob, the Fetal Specialist, the genetic specialist and a fetal heart doctor..Turns out she did have turner syndrome. I remember telling my boyfriend that he didn’t have to takeoff of work that it would be OK my mom and his mom we’re going to be there but when I talk to the genetic specialist, my mom and my mother-in-law were there and she told me there is a 50% chance that she won’t make it so he hit hard and and by December 7 I went to my new OB because it was a high-risk pregnancy at My first appointment there, on the way I felt her move, I was 21 weeks, I felt her move in a parking garage when we first got there by time we(means my mom) got called back they couldn’t find a heartbeat..due to the turner syndrome her body couldn’t process fluid in it just builds happened she is really swollen. My boyfriend was working out of town about six hours away I remember calling him crying and begging him to not let me go through this alone so he got there right in time right whenever they admitted me before giving me the medicine to induce me. That next morning I had her on December 8 2017. Christmas eve my boyfriend turned to my fiancé. At the time I Kept saying I wasn’t going to have another kid until five years because I couldn’t deal with it but after two months I just wanted to start trying again so I did ovulation test and everything and I ended up pregnant and I had a healthy baby boy on November 30 2018. Now I’m 24 and I’ve been trying for baby number two for a Little over a year and I am on Clomid because I don’t ovulate this is my third cycle on Clomid. Yesterday I got a very positive ovulation test for the first time in a long time and I am hoping i get pregnant this round...