Cried it out

Picture this I had a csection 10 days ago. I’ve been dealing with bathroom pain because of hemorrhoids and the pain meds. DH’s parents were going to come help take care of the baby during recovery and to see her. But won’t be in town until sometime next week.

While this morning I had to run to the bathroom. But she was fussing a lot and I could leave her alone. So I did this

She’s crying and I’m crying on the toilet because she’s crying and I’m in pain in two places (hemorrhoids and incision site) I’m trying desperately to make one of the 3 feel better. Then all of a sudden after 10 minutes of me trying to clean up (bathroom trips take way longer now) she fell asleep crying.

I’m over here like 😭😭😭😭😭 I’m trying so hard and with recovery I feel like a bad mommy.