Im 12 weeks 3 days now and im so upset.

I love my bean but i dont want a bump. 😥

I weighed 180 when i got pregnant at 5 ft 4 in. I was worked so hard to loose 30 plus pounds and as unexpected as this baby was we are excited and so happy. Im just struggling with being big already at 12 weeks. I hate mirrors and i cry when my pants dont fit or my shirts are tight. Does this make me horrible? This is me at 12 weeks 1 day and at 5 weeks. I dont even feel like its a bump. Just fat 😖