Trying Again

It’s been 10 months since the miscarriage. We eventually stopped trying after May. But we’re starting to TTC again. Boy I don’t miss the stress. &The pain of having to watch all of my friends one by one announce their pregnancies and give birth. Me and my man have been trying for three and a half years. I’m turning 26 in a couple months and I really don’t want to be 30 by the time I have a baby.

I took this year to do therapy full time after losing my job to Covid. Thank god it was a blessing honestly because my bosses forced me to work during my miscarriage 🙃. I developed PTSD and post partum. But I learned so many healthy coping strategies I’m thankful for that doing therapy twice a week for 5 months straight.

It was so nice to just focus on myself this year and put my full effort into healing my mental health and my soul. There was so much unhealed trauma I didn’t even realize. I decided to go back to school and have decided on the ultimate career goal. I want to become a dermatologist. Right now I’m in school to be a CNA. I wanted to start a career in the health field somehow. Gain some health experience. I can use the license anywhere. Because I am planning on moving from Alaska to Maine next year with my man and my two dogs ❤️. I’m hoping to raise our babies there. It looks amazing and similar to Alaska but the difference is they have beaches 🥺. I love beaches I’ve only been to a beach once or twice in my life.

Anyway. I really just wanted to reflect and vent to someone without judgement. Thank you to whoever has read all of this.

Baby dust to us all✨