I lost my baby Saturday at what I thought was supposed to be 8 weeks turns out my baby stopped growing at 6 weeks 3 days that’s what my sac was measuring. I’m so heart broken been trying for a year and thought something was wrong with me got exams done and doctors told me everything was fine and normal . I finally get the desire of my heart to only get it taken away from me, I’m devastated I’ve never felt pain like I did when I lost my little E I feel like it was a boy I have a strong feeling it was and so did a lot of other people 💔 I was already planning gender reveal baby shower, I already bought baby items. I’m just left without words honestly, I get so depressed and it’s like no one understands me. people telling me well maybe it was Gods way of saying not yet, or stop crying, or you’ll get to try again, or it’s better it happened sooner than later. And to top it off my mother asked me if I planned on getting on birth control. not even 2 days had past by and she asked me that. she wants me to finish school before I have a baby, when I told her I was pregnant she was furious so mad at me... I did everything I was supposed to do take my prenatal, rest, eat well, workout ( lightly) not carry heavy stuff... I know it’s not my fault.

First it was light pink bleeding then Friday it was brown went to doctor said they only see sac and yolk sac but no baby said I might be earlier than I thought ( impossible was supposed to be 8 weeks) he said I might miscarry . then Saturday I went to ER bleeding got dark red no cramping but my body did dispose something ( I believe it was my baby first) they did an ultrasound and yet again same outcome sac and yolk sac no baby and to top it off subchorionic hematoma. I was like ok I have hope I’ve heard stories of women who have same situation and they go back to doctors and wha-la there is their baby. well not for me, Saturday night went to a birthday celebration hubby wanted to distract my mind. Go to bathroom to pee look down red blood. The doctor explained that if I did miscarry I would feel a sharp pain well that pain came as I was outside sitting down crying because I started having small cramps like the ones I would have in the beginning of my pregnancy that everyone says was normal because my uterus was stretching. I got that one big pain the do tor explained I went running to bathroom and here it was I felt it I felt the moment what was meant to protect my baby and be my baby’s home for the next nine month left my body. I felt it and I can still feel it as if it was happening today. I’ve never cried so much I’ve never felt so much pain. I’ve never felt my heart break the way it did Saturday. I think about what my baby would have looked like, what his voice would of

Sounded like ( have a strong feeling it was a boy) what his eyes would have looked like... I’m in so much pain.. i don’t know if I’ll ever forget this...

My baby 💔