I’m a control freak!! 😭😭

I’m a control freak and it sucks that I feel like my new pregnancy is out of my hands. I feel like the future is out of hands. I’m just scared about EVERYTHING. Getting through the pregnancy, time off with work, daycare, money, our rental, our dog, my weight, EVERYTHING! My husband is always calm (annoying lol) and I know eventually things work themselves out. I have a lot of family, who can always help out in times of need, they all just live at least 3.5hours away. Life just seems uncertain, because I don’t know what is around the corner. I can plan all I want but it’s not always going to go that way. The pregnancy was planned, but I’m not allowing myself to feel excited, for some reason I just want to be clinical. I think I’m trying to protect myself for if something happens to the pregnancy.