Between SAD, regular depression, anxiety, and PTSD, things have been rough. I feel drained. We just got a puppy which is marvelous. But at the same time, I do everything. I need this because he does help with my mental health. I’m about empty though.

Husband came home last night as I was in a downward mental spiral. I couldn’t talk. I didn’t want anything to do with physical touch. His love language is touch. It’s so hard because I love him, with all my heart. He’s an incredible man who loves me fully and unconditionally. I still just don’t want to be touched. I can’t tell if this is a mental block from my mental health/past trauma, or if I truly do need to be held by him. It may be time to seek medical treatment. I’m not sure how long I can keep going like this.