Feeling Ugly

I hate using that word.... but idk what else to describe it with. I have 15 pounds left over my pre pregnancy weight to lose.... none of my clothes fit me. My stomach has never looked this droopy. My face is rounder... my hair is too short... nothing is how I want it to be and I just don’t feel like going anywhere if I can’t look nice. And side note, my husband has a past with looking up pictures of girls, and he has stopped for a while but I juSt caught him doing it again this morning, so now I feel even uglier... I know that’s probably not why he looks at it, but I cannot compare... idk what to do... I’m starting to stress eat again too. This whole thing just sucks!!!

At least positive note, I have the most amazing baby boy that smiles at me, and looks at me with such love in his eyes. And my 2 year old, so sweet and loving. I’m a lucky mom. And that’s why my body looks the way it does.