Traumatized

With my delivery, the one thing I for sure wanted besides a healthy baby was an epidural. Long story short, I ended up needing pitocin. After starting on that is when I was told that because of a condition I have, I wasn’t going to be able to get an epidural. I was in no way prepared for a birth without medication. They gave me a medicine that I can’t remember the name of. I had a button because it only lasted long enough in your system to get through one contraction. The hospital took so long to get it to me when it ran out, that I had a decent amount of labor with nothing but my breathing. I cry just thinking about it and don’t want anymore kids anymore.