Feeling trapped.

I've been a stahm since my 17 month old was born, I tried going back to work but I didn't make enough money for a reliable daycare and my family couldn't watch her consistently. I still have this problem and Covid made me get laid off the only job I was able to bring her with me (bus driving). Anyway I hate that I feel like I have to justify what I do all day and I hate not having my own money to spend and save up, I'm completely dependant on my husband and he told me he doesn't like that I'm "living off him".... I'm hurt he thinks of me that way, he is a good dad but I just want to be 100% independent from him and never have to ask him for a penny. We are a good team but this just really made me feel completely useless as if the work of a mother to keep her kids fed, cleaned and nurtured and her house made to feel like a home doesn't matter at all 😔