i feel so dumb...

i dropped the restraining order against my bd because he asked and said he knows he doesn’t harass me.

i did it because i just wanted him to see the baby and he said he would.

but he just blocked me after i told him i went.

i’m so fucking stupid.

i don’t understand how you can’t love your own baby how you don’t want to see him. a baby is such a precious gift from god, so many people take that for granted and don’t understand that. and it breaks my heart my child doesn’t get his dad.