Once again I wake up and see stuff on his phone that breaks my heart. Once again its porn and other women. We have been married for almost a year and together a total of 1 yr and 9 months. I have caught my husband talking to other women on fb, snapchat and LinkedIn all this month. He promises everytime I have caught him (this has been happening our whole relationship) that he wont do it again, that it was mistake. But he just keeps doing it, he has the same pattern everytime so I know when he is cheating on me. He abuses me, puts me down, controls me, cusses me like a dog, spits (literally) in my face. Because of him, I dont even trust men anymore. I will look at men and think their just like him. I have never stood by a man who mistreated me like he has done, but I let my heart make the choices instead of my mind. He says he loves me, but then turns right around and tells me to go die. I was even trying to have his child thinking maybe that would make him stop and to love me. But it didnt. He chooses porn and other women over his own wife who literally does everything in her power for him. I am so broken and alone. My heart says stay and fight for my marriage, but my mind says it's time to stop fighting for a loosing battle.